Not Geared

I don't know why I have no drive nowdays. I mean I know and realise I have work to do but a lot of things just don't seem to fall in place.

I just don't see myself pushing to get things done and am merely waiting for the boss to instruct me to. I have become a person I don't even know in my work place. No more going the extra miles, no more daily must do routines, no more my chirpy positive self.

Why am I like that?!!!

Pin It Now!

Things I Do When I'm Stressed

I must say I've been very melodramatic these days and I just felt so beaten. So, I turn to my favourite pastime...eating shopping!!! Hey, a girl gotta do something to cheer herself right?

I just can't stop myself...online shopping is just too addictive! And you know what...Retail Theraphy does help beat away the blues... a little. These are my latest indulges (in this month alone and its only half way through *shifty eyes*):

My nicely wrapped parcel from Azorias (2nd parcel in a month actually..*cough*)

Awaiting my new favourite lip clutch from Lulu Guinness

It would be another 30 days before I see my pretty fluorescent yellow Cambridge Satchel.  I actually like the purple and green solid color as well (maybe another size another day huh?)

I am actually smiling wide thinking of my new babies =D   Life is still great after all!

Pin It Now!

I'm Sapped

Yes. I'm sapped, super-exhausted and just dog-tired! Work past 10.00pm yesterday, practically ran to my car parked in this horribly shabby scary building and my mind was as blurry as hell driving back home.

Imagine having to go through sets of numbers 86127835782153179 times and re-format and revised, and then repeat the whole process 7129387892164927397194696491 times! Work-exchange program, anyone?

This is what I have gone through for the past 3 weeks and I think I'm physically and mentally drained.

Oh...What did I do to deserve this? :'(

Pin It Now!

I Need to LAUGH

Ya...I'm in a serious distress mode now...the emo nemo :(

So, a quick browse on youtube eventually does make me smile a lil. Here's a real funny video and I can't wait for the Fun With Three Gods concert in Genting next month!

Wong Cho Lam is a real entertainer and he can sure make me laugh any time.


More of his other real funny scenes

Laughter is the best medicine eh! So, if anyone found any humorous vids, please share...and I promise I will love you much ♥ ♥ ♥ Pin It Now!

Depression

I am majorly crushed right now...
I feel so lost...
I hate the people here...
I can't understand a thing...
I have no faith...
I lost all motivation...
I need to leave...

I think the worse part is...
I feel nothing...Except for a mini mental breakdown.


Is there anyone around to hear me out?
Is this a sign of depression?!! :(

Pin It Now!

Grandpa Love

Got news that my grandpa's (my mum's dad) awake in hospital and was really glad...I should be visiting him anytime soon...he's really suffering from old age now and I just wished he will suffer less pain. To be frank, I am not close to him and I haven't seen him for such a long long time...I guess this makes me a bad person :(

Times like this made me feel really disturbed and reminds me of my late grandpa (my dad's dad) who loves me so so much. In fact, most of the time, I missed him deeply...whenever I passed by Muzium Negara (a place where we share many memories when I was little), whenever I saw other old folks walking out on the streets and particularly when I watched the movie "Great Day"...my heart just swell up and I know I haven't done much for him.

I secretly wept everytime I think of him and I wished I can turn back time...if there's one thing I regret in my life, it's that I did not care for my grandpa as much and I didn't show him how much I felt for him and I know I'm gonna live with this disgusted feeling of myself in my entire life.

Which is why I have changed much and I try to be nice to all people around me..."Cherish" is a word long forgotten and I hope people will start to realise this before it's too late.

It's not easy for me to say it, so here... "I Love You, Grandpa"...wherever you are and may I be your Grandpa the next life to repay your love! Pin It Now!

Inner Peace

Now whenever I feel stressed, confused and when I struggle figure out how to live thru the day...my mind flew back to the scene where Shifu has already found his "inner peace"...he floats and everything seems so at peace. Ah...what a breathtaking sight!

Inner Peace, Inner Peace, Inner Peace...what are you?

Where are you?

What can I do to find you?

Come to me....please....

Even Po seems to find his "inner peace"

Oh, when....when can I find my "inner peace"

Maybe I should try this eh...wtf

*Inner peace should come to me anytime soon* yes...I like it this way ♥

Pin It Now!